Thursday, January 31, 2013

Funemployment? I Call Bullshit

Dear Diary,

So, I am rounding out a full month of being unemployed.  You would think since I am not working a nine to five job that I would have more time to write to you.  Yeah, you would think that you greedy bitch.

But alas, I have not written to you in well over a month. It's not that I haven't had the time, for I surely have.  It's just that I have nothing to tell you.  Absolutely nothing.  Nada.  Or maybe it's just that I have nothing interesting to say.

I mean, I am sure you do not want to know that I have somehow managed to keep my sleep patterns consistent with someone who is employed.  I am sure you do not want to hear about my pathetic routines that make me feel somewhat normal and useful.  And I am sure as shit that you do not want to hear me lament about a lack of a paycheck.

So, rather, I will tell you about what I think is the absolute worst part of being unemployed.

It's not the rejection of being turned down for jobs or interviews. It's not the watching of your bank account to make sure you can pay all your bills. It's not the signing up for unemployment benefits that everyone these days seems to equate with one being a lazy mooch.  No, it's none of that.

It's the fucking boredom in my opinion.

I mean, at some point, you just kinda run out of shit to do, know what I mean?  There are only so many times you can clean a bathroom or kitchen.  There are only so many projects you can do around the house.  There are only so many movies you can watch.  There are only so many times one can read ESPN.  At some point, you just do not know what to do with yourself.

Sure, I spend a decent part of my day applying for jobs and/or networking to the best of my ability.  but once that is over, I just sort of sit there like a fucking idiot staring out into a vast nothingness.

And it's not like I haven't done anything.  This month has been extremely productive. Hell, even my taxes are finished.  But after a month, I am running out of things to do.  Or rather, I am running out of things to do that do not cost a lot of money.Because Lord knows that the one thing I am dying to do is drop $400 bucks a week keeping myself occupied or doing something fun.

I need a hobby.  Preferably a free one.

3 comments:

  1. My sister said the same thing after she left the military and was unemployed for awhile. At first, she thought she would enjoy it and then ended up wicked bored.

    I hear ya. I guess stay at home house husband isn't in your future? :)

    About the unemployment: I would think that in this time we are living in nobody would judge you for collecting. You earned those benefits with all the years you put in.

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  2. I think I would get bored too. If it were warmer, you could run outside and stuff for free, but I guess the gym costs money too, huh. I hope you find something soon!

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  3. Oh man, that really sucks. I'm sorry. I'm sitting here thinking of what you could do for free, hobby-wise... do you like to write? I know you haven't been writing here but what about articles on something? You could make another blog. Also, you could browse museums for free at least - try to do something that gets you out of the house every day to feel better. Rooting for you. I may be in your same boat soon, this economy does suck.

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