Friday, December 31, 2010

A Look Forward

Dear Diary:

You know what is coming, so here it is....

Dear Self,

Hey you, yes you. I am taking a different route with this letter this year. I am not going to tell you everything that you accomplished. Oh no, I don't want to spoil any surprises that might come along the way. Neither do I want to create expectations in your head that when you look back on 2011 you will feel discouraged or you will trying to force yourself to recognize things that are not really there. But I will point out a couple of general things that you managed to pull off without getting into specifics.

Sure, 2010 was shit year, but 2011 was better. It wasn't extremely better, but it was no worse than the previous one. If anything, it was your year in the sense that you focused completely on you, and no, it wasn't selfish. For years now you have given off this vibe that you ultimately do not care what other people think of you, and hell you have even flat out said it, yet you seemingly have gone out of your way to impress them or give them a good opinion of yourself. It was a walking contradiction really. By focusing on you, and getting your mind and body right, all the other extemporaneous bullshit in life really will not amount to much. Now, I am not going to tell you the specifics of how you did it, but know that somewhere along the journey, something just clicked. I just hope you realize it when it comes. But if you don't, don't worry. It will set in.

The one thing I will tell you that you definitely did accomplish was quitting tobacco. You kept your word to yourself and did not touch the stuff after the stroke of midnight ringing in the New Year. So kudos to that.

Now sure, 2010 didn't end on the highest of notes, and you did not get that SUV that you wanted. You still drove the car your ex-wife helped pick out, but you recognized that the reason you still drive it has nothing to do with anything other than making a quick, and albeit wrong, decision when you were going through your divorce and you thought you needed to have THAT vehicle because it was the only one you could afford. But, once you recognized that, things seemed to work out just fine. Are you driving something new right now? Eh, maybe, maybe not. But is it really that important? The answer is no.

And try to do me a favor? Please take a real vacation. You need one.

Sincerely,

Yourself

2 comments:

  1. Cheers to a real vacation and things 'clicking' - I know both will happen and you'll also get the baller car you deserve :) cheers!!

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  2. I second the vacation cheers. And about the car? You can always get the SUV later. All of life is a giant learning experience and though tuition is expensive, it's still worth the lessons. Happy new year!

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